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DEJA VU AND DPDR: COMMON PSYCHIC ILLUSIONS AND MY EXPERIENCE WITH THEM

as the title says! my experience with deja vu and depersonalization-derealization.

Dihaan

3/7/20241 min read

If we were to take the word of science, dreams and memories are only electric brain impulses, fragments of thoughts and imagery pulled from our mind and embedded into our subconscious to visit us again and again. Déjà vu is only a connection of memories, and the feeling of dreaming when real is only a minor psychic setback. But what if it really fazes me? What if I feel that it is something deeper than just a definition?

Memories, for me, are a chain link of reactions. It only takes a single detail in the present to drag me back into the past, where I saw something similar, and then I’m detached, cold all over, feeling surreal. Déjà vu, my mind screams at me. I try to pull myself back into reality, but I’m unsuccessful, fazed.

DPDR…my nemesis and paramour. It stands for Depersonalization-derealization disorder, the feeling of dreaming even while awake. This can be triggered by anything, in my case. I’ll be on a walk outside, on an average day, and suddenly, I feel surreal. Colors seem to be brighter, everything is 4D, I don’t feel like I’m myself. This feeling can leave as quick as it came, or it lingers…giving me the full experience.

What really causes these? It could be my state of mind. Maybe my mind was restless, or I was overly gleeful or despondent. Perhaps it bloomed from active depression or repressed feelings. It could be anything that induced that hazy feeling of displacement.

I’ve been experiencing these less and less now. I busy myself in books, in reading, in my hyperfixations. If I was ever a victim of these psychic states again, I’d do the same thing I do now- divert myself and focus on everything that makes me happy.